Seems like I tend to overwhelm my dates. Too much information about myself or too much feedback. Maybe I’m attracting people who are resistant to sharing more about themselves. Or maybe the situation is that I am too comfortable with sharing too much too quickly. Add also in too much of a high expectation that I have of wanting to hear from that person, probably more frequently than they are ready to give. I think, I am all too much ready to “jump” in the waters of a relationship rather than taking my time and wading in. I would think that I would see this much more clearly, especially with when you take the time and go slower, I would suspect that you would be able to see incompatibility between the two much more clearly before complete “mind melding” has happened!
While my friend is clearly hurt from the experience, and rightly so, for me it is getting tiring and draining. Â It’s like an investment of my personal energy. Energy of taping into my emotions, finding words to express the feelings, observations, remembering the details, spending the time focusing on the person to remember conversations. All of these take their toll. Not good or bad, I’m not passing judgement, it’s more like, I am tired of spending all that energy doing that for then someone who, then just doesn’t respond. Or can’t express to me to stop/slowdown or “YES WE LIKE IT! MORE MORE MORE!!!”
The problem is, I’m really struggling to figure out how to hold back. The thing is, I LIKE to share myself with others. Something’s gotta give, cause I’m getting tired of the disappointment. And being disappointed is just not a place i like to be, cause then all those bad things about myself I really don’t like start to come out. It’s like I go all DARKSIDE. Ugh. I want to stay positive and be in the LIGHT. So let’s keep it positive.